dose for a hurting reality..

let's have a paradigm shift with the happiness that i felt before.. i never had a perfect pursuit for something since the last time i feel this agony.. a remote and unbalanced thought for a collateral perfection gives me a road trip to find my death.. feels like my soul is missing.. because i feel so dead.. as Aristotle said, "to have soul means to be alive". but with my situation right now, oh my! im searching for my soul! but for me, he is the one that has no soul.. he's a flicker! he can ruin my mind and my life spontaneously.. as i feel the sensation and perceive his actions. i really do agree with what kao-tzu said that "human nature is instrinsically neither good nor bad" we really can't say if one's nature is good.. nevertheless i take for granted those statements and i still continue believing on his lies.. his existence is really really vague.. it's too ambiguous.. my thoughts can't bare holding on thinking about his lies f*ck! he's really a lier..